Passing Over

I sigh as I sink down onto the sand and hug my knees to my chest against the coolness of the predawn air. I have struggled to get here but now I am just in time to witness a most glorious event, unseen by so many. The air tingles with anticipation as the world seems to hold its breath, as do I, as slowly there is a lightening to the east over the dark unfathomable ocean. A slither of white light rises over the indigo horizon and as it grows the white turns to gold, spilling its wake across the incoming waves like millions of diamonds.

I take a deep breath of delight, tasting the salty air brought to me by the mild sea breeze, as the colours before me change again. It is like watching a giant Kaleidoscope, as the sun moves a little higher painting the morning sky vivid purple with a splash of green and many shades of blue; too many to count.

As the warmth of the sun final reaches close enough to touch my face, I close my eyes against its brightness and the corners of my mouth rise up. At last I feel the knot I have had for so long in my stomach, unwind and I can let it all go. All the pain, angry, denial and self pity that I have been hanging on to like a drowning woman, is now draining from me. Gone is the need to rale against the injustice of my situation and as I sit watching such beauty the last residual anger slips away and I am free. Peace, love and light is all I want in my life and I invite them in. I feel loved and no longer alone, something I have rarely felt in this lifetime but at last I have found love from within. I’m glad about this but wish I had found inner peace before now, but better late than never.

Behind me I feel her presence and smile as I am ready now, to go with her.

“You have done well and learnt much beloved one, but if you are ready, you can move on now.”

I look up and see so much compassion and love in her face for me that I feel humble to be in her presence.

“Yes I’m ready,” I say as this time I really am.

I have said all my goodbyes so, when she holds out her hand I reach up and take it. Effortlessly I’m standing like I used to and we begin to walk along the beach into the golden light of the sun. Just before we step into it I turn to look back and see my earthly body slumped on the dune and there are no footprints on the beach. I am free of the pain now and smile at her as she leads me into the tunnel where only love awaits me.

By T. J. Hobbs