The Opening
 
   I looked at the opening I had created a few moments ago. It had caused me pain and sadness but it had also taken determination simply to carry out my decision.  There was no going back.  I felt there was no other option.  Truly I was not sure how it got that far in the first place.  I was only in my twenties, where had it all gone wrong?  When had this feeling which permeates my life started weighing on me like a boulder? What had led me to this momentum day?    I thought back to a younger me, at 9 years old.  Finding out that the hero I worshipped and had put on a pedestal had fallen from it with a big bang.  My dad, my hero! Well, how would I know at 9 years old what having a nervous breakdown means?  What did I know about mental health?  I just could not believe that this man, in my eyes always tall, strong and whom I loved, was the same as this whimpering, crouched up, crying man, rocking in a chair.  This man who had fathered 3 children was now a child himself, unexpectedly req...
